So, after my little rant earlier this week, I have since calmed down a bit, and, after some self reflection, I feel that the reason I’ve been feeling a little out of sorts is because I’m going through some transformations as well. Still no serious running has me feeling a little unsure of the direction of my life. I feel uncertain about what I should be doing. I am questioning my place in the world.
My kids are getting older and I often ask myself if I shouldn’t be working for someone else and making consistent income rather than continue spending so much time trying to build a business out of blogging. I have no definitive goals and for me that leads to feeling mildly confused and lost. If I imagine establishing goals and what they might look like, nothing seems satisfying or is jumping out at me.
In times like this I have found it’s best to just be still, go for long walks, and intentionally try to clear my mind. I am backing off from my intense blogging schedule and just publishing things that are already in my dashboard. My motivation is low, so for the first time in a very long time, I’m just listening to myself and going with it. If I don’t feel like cleaning the house… I don’t. If taking pictures of what I’m doing feels flat and uninspiring… I refrain. When I get anxious about not doing something, I sit down, take a deep breath, honor my anxiety, and just chill for a sec.
It’s helping. Every day I feel less and less restless – but I still have a long way to go. What am I describing? Anxiety and yes, I suffer from full blown attacks. Sometimes it’s tough for me to recognize that. I have become accustomed to feeling a little panicky and navigating my life around those feelings.
I know what I need to do. I need to let go of the expectations I put on myself as a parent, as a blogger, as a friend, wife, and global citizen. I also need to establish a fitness routine and spend some time being relaxed and quiet. I must stop making excuses why this isn’t possible for me, it’s a necessity at this point. I’m tired of the internal struggle and my health is being effected. Time to make some changes.
In other news, if you have a daughter (even if you don’t) you should head over here and read Carla’s article on Boobs and Pubes. I love reading anything by Carla, she has a way of starting conversation like no other. She gets you thinking. Plus, she cracks me up. I feel like I’m at a slumber party when I read her posts. But, enough gushing – go spy on her sleepover.
And now for the real reason you’re here… What to do with all of those old race bibs? Maybe you made a Serving Tray, or a Running Journal, but if you’re like me, you still have more bibs laying around, so why not make a clipboard?
I’m one of those people who loves journals, folders, pens and clipboards, so this has gotten some use in my home. I could also see making this DIY as a gift for a Cross Country/ Track Coach– the holiday season is quickly approaching. I added a sticky strip of gems to the edge, but it looked great without it as well.
What You’ll Need
How to Make It
It will look cloudy, so allow Mod Podge to dry for 4-6 hours or overnight or until it looks clear.Easy DIY Race Bib Clipboard-- What to Do With Old Race Bibs #FitFluential #Sweatpink #RunChat Click To Tweet
What do you do with old race bibs? Did you read Boobs and Pubes? What are you doing this weekend?